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For several years now, I've been ruminating on how to best communicate things that are coming as far as my ministry where all of this is going. And after so much time, it's interesting, I've decided the best way to address this is to just speak extemporaneously about it. And maybe that's the best way to avoid saying things that I shouldn't. And also to avoid making this a 650 page book, which it would have to be. And so I'm going to spare a whole lot of uh scriptures and just try to make everything as concise as I possibly can uh and speak to you very plainly about it. So what, what pushed, what pushed us over the edge is a series of communications with three or more people in the last week or two. the most recent of which was what I read this morning and there's an email from someone and I just want to read the snippet of what he said that that was like, you know, those coin pusher machines and the arcades. I think that's a thing of the past, but some of you are old enough to know what I'm talking about. Uh It just, it pushed it all over. So he says, I'm wondering how I can increase desire. Sometimes I know exactly what to do. But I admit I often don't want to do what I know is best. I'm assuming there's something I'm missing in desire. Perhaps information I haven't considered any insights will help. Now I'm gonna back up a little bit and then we're gonna go into that. So let's say that you were alive in the time of Jesus. And let's say that um you were one of these people that had a lifelong debilitating situation, maybe a terminal illness. Uh maybe even like Lazar's, you are actually dead. And let's say that you applied to Jesus for help or in the case of Lazarus. Uh Well, I guess he still did want Jesus to come help him, but he happened to die before that could happen anyway. So you've applied to Jesus for help and he helps you and he alleviates this extremely serious situation that you have. What? Why did he do it? Why did he do it? The answer is to glorify the father. That's what he says again and again, particularly in the book of John, what does it mean to glorify? It means to expand your understanding of the goodness of God. What does that mean? Well, there's a content question and there's a value question. Now, this is German. It's, it's critical to understand this. If you want to live the gospel. If you want to achieve the things we're on this earth to achieve now, we can boil all this down and say it very, very simply. We're here to understand more about Jesus and to live everything we understand that is the path to the greatest joy. Just being able to say that in such plainness cuts through thousands of pages of scriptures that are beyond the comprehension of most people. It cuts through thousands of years of earth's history. This is an exceedingly plain way of saying something and it costs more than you can understand to be able to um I'll say develop that, but that's not the best word. What did it take Jesus to be able to do what he did during his ministry ? Speaking specifically about the miracles because that's easier for, for people to understand. Well, we know that there were 33 years or 30 I guess at least 30 years of processes he had to go through in order to get there. Now, how many years did Enoch walk with God? 300 right? Or somewhere around there is, is more than that. So if Enoch walked with God for 300 some years, what did he learn in that time? And how now whatever the answer is to that question, did Jesus know more than Enoch? He did? Was he more than Enoch? He was? Did he arrive that way? He did not there? Were differences in how Jesus arrived in, in uh to earth, in Enoch, but they weren't directly connected to this. And so here's my question for you. What did Jesus have to experience? How was this compressed down because he received more than Enoch? And yet he did it in 30 to 33 years and he took hundreds of years to receive less. How did Jesus do that? And if Jesus did it in 30 years, how long would it take you to learn the same and become the same? Now, most Christians don't believe it's possible to even approach that they don't even bother trying. In fact, they glorify the idea that religion exists so that you don't have to be righteous , which is quite a, quite a, a twist, isn't it? It's quite the literal definition of anti-christ, but we can be like him. And so what's the difference with Jesus? Well, at least, at least one difference is there were many righteous men and women who came and lived between the life of Enoch and the life of Christ that we know of. There were only a very small handful before Enoch. In fact, the only person who lived before Enoch who is more righteous than Enoch was Adam. And if you read the scriptures very carefully, Enoch only met Adam later in life, which is also a surprise for most people anyway, just like we learn in physics, you can chop up an amount of work into smaller increments. And when you do so you stretch it out over time. And so this is like with a pulley system, you can break up the work of lifting a heavy object. But you're gonna have to yank on that chain or rope more times. Well, these righteous people who came, they received from heaven and they deposited it here. They instantiated that light and truth from the spirit into the physical realm through what they said through what they did through what they wrote. So all the people after them who had access to what they did, and there's a component of this. I don't, don't want to get into, that's beyond that. But when you bring something, when you experience something as a mortal being from the spiritual realm, you, you change the access to that same information and make it more accessible to everyone else. And the concrete way you can measure that is what in what you say and do and write. There are other ways that are not physical, but we'll, we'll set that aside and just say it for the sake of completeness. So Jesus stood on the shoulders of midgets. So the phrase is standing on the shoulders of giants and obviously Jesus is the giant, but he stood on the shoulders of midgets because these spiritual giants that came before him, these uh I don't like that phrase at all. I know people use it. So I'll use their language. But um these, these men, these just men made perfect, these, these men who uh who invested their whole lives to seek God, to understand God better and to live more like Him, they deposited things on the earth and Jesus was able to draw from all of that and doing what he needed to do. Now, that was not by a long shot, the major component of difference between what he did and what Enoch did or what any of the people before him did. What was the major difference? The major difference was the compression just consisted of greater intensity of what of suffering, greater intensity of suffering. And so uh in Hebrews, we read that he learned obedience through suffering. It's not a great translation and learn to love what is good through what he suffered. So in the in you can be obedient without loving obedience, strictly speaking. But can you really to submit to God is not to submit? Like a dog would submit? Which is um please stop hurting me. I'll do what you say. But just I, I'm only doing this because I don't want the pain to truly love God. That's what it takes to submit for real. And when you love Him, you don't do things out of fear. You don't even do them out of respect. You do them with the greatest gratitude, the greatest joy. Imagine being in a place where you actually experience a fullness of joy in knowing what God would have you do and then doing it indeep, excuse me, independent of whatever he's asking you to do or how much it costs you. This is an easy thing to say. Although be because it's not an easy thing to do. Most people would really struggle to formulate the words because it's outside of the realm of what they're willing to think about because it causes them great guilt because they're not willing to do it. So one of the interesting things uh I was just reading in a book yesterday, the sentences struck me quite hard and it was a phrasing of how every economic transaction occurs , which is that um value is transferred from the person who has it to a person who values it. More. Think about that cause it's a little wordy. If I pay a kid, I don't know what the going rate is because my kids work, I was gonna say for free, they work for a lot of money, but uh it's what I give them anyway as their father. Um But, but I don't know what a kid charges to cut grass today, but let's say it's 20 bucks. So if a kid's gonna charge you $20 to mow your lawn and you give him $20 that $20 is more valuable to him than it is to you. In the context of cutting grass, you'd rather give away $20 and have your grass cut and keep the $20 and cut it yourself. Right. You know, in God's Kingdom that's reversed. This is something that's that people don't understand in God's Kingdom. The flow is always from the one who appreciates it more to the one who appreciates it less. This is actually a correct way to think about love, love that God has for us and love that we have for others as we keep his commandment to love others as or in the same way that He loves us. It's not a question of doing good things for other people and then feeling good about it better than you did before you have your reward . Jesus said this is why we need to love our enemies because if you don't love your enemies, you don't love anybody because what you have isn't love. It's a motive to get gain, to increase, to get more than you had before. Love is giving away the greater thing to someone who will absolutely appreciate it less than you think about that. So when Jesus healed people, he was taking 30 years of the most valuable thing, the most painful experience that anyone had ever experienced and emitting an extract from that into someone who absolutely positively could not comprehend what it was worth. Why didn't Jesus heal everyone? Why doesn't he heal everyone again? We're just narrowly thinking about in terms of miracles. Why doesn't he give you everything that you ask for? He gives me everything I ask for in fulfillment of the promises littered through the scriptures. Why doesn't he give you everything that you ask for? Because your value is not aligned with his, what you value and by how much is not aligned with him. Now, before I said the purpose of the gospel, the whole reason we're here is to learn more about Jesus and to live up to what we know about him. Another way of phrasing that is to learn what he would do in our place, to want to do it, to understand what he values and by how much and when I said it before, you probably felt like, well, yeah. Well, duh, and yet even in that phrasing, you will not hear that in any church. And people who would say it have probably heard it from me or someone who heard it from me. But now when I say an even plainer speech, we're here to learn what God values and by how much we're here to believe that no one will tell you that because they don't understand and they're not there. But once someone has said it, all of these scales fall from our eyes more correctly . We cut the fat from around our hearts, we circumcise our hearts. That's the scriptural phrase because your desire, that's your heart, right? What you want and why you want it and how much so he can't give you what you want. All the time. He can't heal you all the time because the very reason we're here in the situations we are are to help us gain that sense of value. That's the most important thing. That's the, the crux of it all, which is a very interesting choice of words. We have to learn to value what God values. We have to learn what He values. We have to learn by how much and essentially all of the gospel is to that end, it's all wrapped up in that. And so there are times when giving someone what they want, helps that. But typically, it's reserved to the situations where this is the channel of learning more of those things and what you want happens to align with it just a little and it's enough to get you on the on one step closer to that end. If you want an example of this, if you go in the book of Mormon two, um when Ammon is teaching the king and or it might be when Aaron is teaching his father, whatever the case may be, the king in question starts asking about the great spirit and he starts asking these questions that are sincere. He really, really wants to know. But Ammon knows what he actually would be asking if he knew more. And these things overlap enough for Ammon or Aaron, whoever it is for the missionary to give the next increment that aligns with what the person desires . But also aligns with what they should desire. Do you see how that works? You should go reread that. You'll see what I'm talking about. It's very rare that those things overlap, but that's what an expert teacher has to do is have a sense of all that and steer someone in the right direction because their motivation is what drives them to learn. But there's a destination that's almost surely different between the teacher and the, the student, which is very appropriate for this discussion. What you think this is all headed to is almost surely dead wrong. The good news is, and one of the prime reasons I wanna make this video is there are definitely things you're gonna find to be crazy in this path, but they're not the things that you're worried about. They're the things you would be worried about if you knew better. And I'm smiling because they're not actually crazy at all. But there are things that you're going to look back and see in the scriptures and it's just gonna click and you're gonna say, man, just like the things I've already said here, you hear them and you're like, well, that's different, but it makes total sense or well done. That's those are the two reactions and that shouldn't change . But once it's unlocked, it's like a puzzle and then you see it and then you could do it again and it would be very easy compared to the impossibility of doing it before having heard it, it's very important to understand that because we take for granted, we take lightly the things that make the most sense after we're shown. So I was gonna show you on my phone an example of this. Um because sometimes I do just give the answer knowing full well that the person asking cannot comprehend what it costs or even what it means. That overlap is small, but it's still in the right direction. And so I go for it, someone asked me, I can remember what it was about. This was yesterday. This is another person in the chain of why I'm doing this. Now. Um He said what? He asked me a question about prodigies, about people that seem to have an excess of talent in some specific thing. And um what's the relationship between that and God in a nutshell? And I said, well, it's complicated, which is always the answer. It's complicated. And you know, that's a real key to why you don't already understand these things. If you don't. It's because, you know, we say you take it lightly and everybody's like, oh, that's bad . I don't wanna be like that. And I'm offended that anyone would suggest it. OK, let's put it in different phrasing so that we can navigate around your unwillingness to see yourself as you really are when that's bad. And every time you create light, you will create a shadow, right? Until that light is directly overhead, brighter and brighter until the perfect day. So go read John three. If you wanna uh have more insight about what our reaction to the appearance of shadows in ourselves. What that says about ourselves in God, our relationship to God, our attitudes to God. John three. Anyway. So, so why don't people get it? Well, in many cases, it's, we won't say it's because they take it too lightly. We'll say it in a different way because they don't realize how complicated it is. They don't realize how much it costs and they don't want to know that they're not willing to pay it. That's why, why did the woman who suffered with the bleeding situation, whatever it was? Why did she suffer her whole adult life with that? You could say because Jesus wasn't around before then? That's true. That's true. But why did he have to be there? So he healed another person from a distance. Why did the lady have to touch his robe? Desire is very much wrapped up in what faith is? How much you want it? What's the price you're willing to pay in God's eyes? Everything has a price and we don't know what it is in most cases and there's a detail there of exactly what the price is. But the more important component on that is the governor of the intensity we're willing to have in seeking for it. The, um, the level of sacrifice we're willing to give in exchange for it. Sacrifice is thought of as something you give away. That is not ever true. It is never true. It is always in exchange. And here's another thing for you to realize every choice you make is an exchange in exchange of what cause you say like, well, I can drink this water right now. Yeah. Instead of what anything else you could possibly do in that moment, I could say the next sentence or I could drink water, I could slap this phone and run away screaming . There's a, a, an infinite set of things you could do in any moment. You are sacrificing every moment you live and until you realize that you're not going to have the strength to make correct decisions, the best decisions in every moment, every single moment is in exchange and the choice is whatever you end up doing or feeling or thinking and anything else you could. So Jesus transmitted these blessings to the people who either had the greatest desire or would get closer to having a more full desire or a better oriented desire than they did before. And so desire is an extremely important concept to understand and just in talking about it for a couple minutes here, hopefully you get the sense that there's a lot more than you thought about. I have two or three books in the works that deal with this topic. But this question from this person, I'm sure he wants to know and you're probably gonna watch this. So I'll just speak to you directly here. And if it applies to anyone else, you can apply it and it will, and if it applies to something um lateral to this, which it will apply it there. Because the general concept is what I'm going for here. The number one thing you can do to increase desire. This is a metal level question. It's fantastic for this is to realize that most of the time when you don't have what you want, it's because you're not willing to pay the price. And that includes this question about desire because the answer can't come to you in an email and now I'm gonna choose to drink water . The next set of ideas I need to talk about here. That is completely the these are completely related to that is the fractal nature of truth. So what is a fractal fractal is an image that's drawn uh through applying an equation again and again and again. And that sounds really tricky. But it's easier to see this visually. And you can look online for examples of these. You'll get this really ornate image, it's a pattern, right? But then you can zoom into the fractal. And what this means is what you're doing is you're applying that equation again and again and again in that region. And what it produces is is is more detail. Now, the spirit does this, I've described it as a lighthouse, wherever you shine the, the lens you're going to see more, your desire is what points the lens, what you choose to attend to, what you choose to pay attention to what you choose to want. And it is a choice. That is what you'll see more of the Lord will teach you more about that. You know, most people waste their lives distracting themselves from that light or shining it on something that's just what they do at work. The fact is that he's, he's willing to teach you and sometimes they just shine it at what they do at church. But usually that's not the case because pretty soon the Lord will teach you things that will get you thrown out of your church. But anyway, and you can't be selective about this as you try to be selective. He'll just shut the whole light down any intentional um ignoring of information that the light reveals, dims the whole light. So I've, I've lost my train of thought now on this, just give me a second because I can't pause this. Uh uh We were talking about fractals, got it. So there are massive differences across any set of people far more than you realize. OK. One of the differences is how they react to the same situation. My favorite example of this is in the book of Helaman, when the prophet Nephi um gets pinned down by these people and he ends up telling them correctly that their chief judge has been murdered. And he says, who did it? And he says, how they'll find out. And of course they find out and you can look because there is an explicit description of the, the different reactions from different people and you could class them together into groups. Some people react to that by saying he's obviously a prophet. He obviously has supernatural information from God and he happens to have just told us that we're being very wicked and God's gonna destroy us if we don't repent. So I'm gonna go off and repent and I'm gonna get baptized and they do that and some people and it just cascades from there. Right? There's a large group of people who just dive deeper into darkness as a result of this because they refuse to believe, even with all that evidence, they refuse to believe. The larger the evidence that you ignore or reject you will, the, the more you shift over into that, that dimness of light, the more your light will dim. So it's a, it's a catalyst in response and there's always a response, staying the same is not an option. So how does this have to do with, with the fractal nature of truth? What I said there was that there's a vast difference in response across people. Some people will do an awful lot, they will change an awful lot in their lives. If you show them the fractal fully zoomed out. Is that? Oh, wow. There's tons of things in my life I can change and I should change because of this. Some people you have to zoom in for a really long time and say, write a whole book on one little idea that you should be able to communicate in one sentence or better said, there are people who only need one sentence and they will do more than the people who need a whole book. And there are some people who need a whole book. There are some people who need 10 books. There's some people who need to be face to face and in like a father, son relationship in some dude's house to get an idea. And there are particulars of this that I will lay out fully later to make the argument about this and explain why it is and how it works. But there's substance, there just take my word for it that there's substance there. You can agree or disagree. Once we, once I lay it out, sometimes frequently , I'd say the problem is that, that people don't understand if they are one sentence people or 10 book people or face to face people. This came after reading through faith, which kudos, right? And he says in the email, he learned some stuff. So just to fill you all in on that, that's good. Um The needle has moved, that's great. But if you come out of through faith with that question, there are parts of through faith that you didn't get and that's fine. I'm not knocking you. This is not a, um, well, I don't know how to say this. I was going to say this is not a better, worse situation. It is, but it's not like an evil, good situation. This is why we're here. This is what we're doing, but we all need much more zooming than we realize. That's the issue. You can preach the gospel in two sentences. That doesn't mean the gospel is simple. Um Or maybe it means it's simple but not easy, but it's hard to put this into words. Um It's sort of a legal correctness because um you can't call something simple that can never be fully described in books. And John says in the end of his gospel that that no number of books could correctly or could fully describe Christ could adequately describe him, which is important . It's important to understand that there's a component that cannot be acquired through reading scripture or any other books that there's a, there's a portion of Christ and it's actually the most important portion that cannot be known through text through words. Now, you should already know this because it's all over the scriptures. These phrases like could not be written now, sometimes that's because God just said, don't write this. But sometimes if you dig into it, you'll see sometimes it's because it literally cannot be contained in words, our words are too limited. Any words are too limited. It has to be learned personally their experience and that's part of where all of this is going. Ok. So I think I covered that adequately. So please don't think I'm being dismissive. If you ask me a question by all means, ask because you don't know whether it's answerable in three sentences or not. And that's fine and I'm not gonna upgrade you. I haven't upgraded this guy. That's not what I'm doing. I'm explaining why I can't give you the answer in an email, but I'm not chiding you for having asked you. You don't know if you don't know, you don't know. And one of the things you don't know is, is this something that can get answered in three question or three sentences or is this something that requires three books? And which of those it is depends in a great deal on you. There are people who I could answer that to in a few sentences, but there's more going on there where they're able to look at the whole fractal and get it. So how does this provide a wonderful context for saying where all of this is going? Well, I'm showing to you that on the one hand where all this is going is gonna be a well done. I get it. It's just all I'm doing. All I'm doing is showing you Jesus. That is my mission is to show you Jesus and to give a sufficient argument to persuade you to be like him. That is my mission to demonstrate the Lord and provide a sufficient argument as to why you should be that way. That's very concise. It's very plain. Everything I do fits in that container in my whole life. How that will unfold. Uh Specifically what I'm talking about is what, what am I gonna do in the ministry is writing these books and what are the topics that will be in them? So sorry, I'm subdividing here writing the books, giving some talks, producing these videos and the occasional blog post. What will all of that information entail? Well , I told you several of the books are essentially about what to value and by how much some of the books are about how to convey these things to others. Essentially they're about teaching there. Um There is a book that's about the process you have to go through to truly know the Lord. It's about suffering . There is a book that's about, I haven't looked at the books in a long time. So I just, I've been focusing on one or two. the ones I've been focusing on the, the next one coming out. I think the next one coming out is all about being who you really are. Which sounds strange. I'm I'm sure. But uh you're not who you really are. You actually have several selves. There's the person you think you are, which is different than how God sees you. There's who you project yourself to be to other people. And that's not how you really are either. And then there's who or how God sees you. And then there's how God sees you could be. And there are things that you can do in your life to reconcile all of these people, which is essential because it's like if you look at a map, you need to know where you are before, you know where you're going, right? Even if you have a map, it's not enough until you know where you are on the map, it's every mall you go into which those don't really exist anymore. There's a sign right at the door that said you are here. If you want to go to this store, here's how you get there, but you need to know you're here because if that dot Weren't there, it wouldn't matter if you knew where you wanted to go. So, um along the way and this is part of the surprises that people get um along the way, it's going to be clear why you need to connect with other people and how now I've already made videos spelling this out. And that's the thing as I'm laying these things out, it's all the same fractal , there's nothing new in there other than greater levels of detail. And so as you look backwards, it should be clear at any point that this has all been a straight line. Even if you weren't capable of predicting correctly, predicting the next point, it all lines up. But even though a lot of the same words are getting used, the ideas are going to be very different than uh sorry, same words that other people use, the ideas are going to be very different than what other people have said and are saying. And this is the the key differentiator, right? Like it's not particularly radical sounding thing to say. My mission is to show people what Jesus is like and convince them to be the same. And yet that is an extraordinarily radical idea. Likewise, you know, when, when you look at the danger, things of religious individuals and what they're preaching, what the what the clear signals of we're in a danger zone here. It's things like getting into groups, whether that be in kind of a church formation or community formation, like literally living in a, in a community, people just start raising their hackles and understandably, that's usually where things or when money is involved, things get pretty crazy . Right? Well, it's not gonna happen on this path in the way that you think. And that's if you could construct the path from here to there, you'd already be there. You wouldn't be watching this video, that's for sure, especially not 40 minutes in. So how is it different? Well, it's the lack of details . That is the key to why all of these other attempts fall short of what they claim to provide. And that, that's really, that's really how it happens, right? They make all these claims as to what is going to happen or what is happening and then they're all, they all collapse uh before they get there. What's lacking is details going back to the fractal. What people present as the gospel is, is essentially it, it's in one step and they say here's a fractal, here's the end, here's what we're claiming to give you. And here's where you are, which is kind of nebulous because we never really point fingers and nail that down and just trust us. If you stay on this path, that's where we're going and lo and behold, it never happens in the actual kingdom of God. What happens is that single step turns into multiple steps and that's like zooming in the fractal just a little and there's a set of people for whom that's enough. Now, the key difference is the outcome is actually the outcome. Then the fractal is zoomed in again and there are even more steps and this just keeps going until there are no steps at all. It's a ramp and once it's a ramp, here are some of the properties that that's going to have everything will be provided so that every single person can draw as near to God as they're willing to draw, what will be required to provide that are a lot of information uh is a lot of information that's not available yet at a massively higher resolution than is publicly available with many human examples that don't currently exist. Along with a whole lot of external reasons to see that this is good and not just good but better than anything. And this is God, it's not a church, it's not any of these other things that you're used to. It's to glorify God. In order to glorify God, you have to be shown more of what he's like and you have to believe more. You have to, you have to desire it more. That's it coming full circle to this email. You have to desire him more. You have to see his properties as good and as better than anything else. And because I'm here and because I feel like it, here's my several sentence attempt at answering this question, which is cheating because of giving you 46 minutes of instruction preceding this. But let's just wink our eyes and pretend that didn't happen. Although you know everything I just said still, how can you increase desire, learn more about reality. Your desire is not some magical thing where you know some Disney movie and your hearts just pointed in some direction arbitrarily your desire is a rank order list of what you value, why you value it and how much you value it and how much is the order on the list? That's, that's you can only denominate value in terms of what you're willing to give away to get something, what you're willing to do without them together. And so if you look at desire, if you look at sin, and you say this is a sin, I struggle with the issue is that thing is higher on the list than it should be. Now, people, people struggle because they try to get the thing off the list. Here's the magical thing about understanding this correctly. You never have to take anything off the list. If you understand reality sins, push themselves down on the list. And because we're finite creatures, you can never get around to it. Let's say you're a heroin addict . And I had a close friend who, unfortunately, he died from overdosing on heroin. He's my neighbor. I love the guy. Uh He's a great guy, great father. And he really struggled with this. And the problem is he, he never honestly recognized. And it's addiction is that we talk about how the problem is never the problem. The problem with addiction is never addiction. It's always honesty. It's not some weird chemical magnetism that you have to something and oh, I can't control it. That's BS OK. Step one is to recognize this is a choice you make and then ask yourself why, why do you choose this? The answer ? The only answer is that you do not value all the things that are better than that. That can't coexist with it as much as you should not should because some person says you should, but you should because you see the reality of the situation. My friend, my neighbor, he loved his kids very much. He loved his wife very much. He was an ideal father in all of these ways. And yeah, he put using heroin above his Children and his wife and he refused to see that. So when it was time to shoot up, he refused to think about the consequences of that in terms of losing his wife, losing his kids, losing his life . And you know, there have been studies done. You can look these up that if someone is there reminding someone of the consequences, they don't do it. Dave Musta, he's the lead singer of this band, Megadeth. Uh, he had a lifelong problem with all kinds of drug addiction when he goes on tour. He actually hires a pastor to come with him and remind him not to do these things. It's not like he has to strap him down or anything. But I heard that at one point, I don't know if he still does that but that you don't need some guy. You have God in you, in your conscience, you have the ability to understand relative ranking of value that's given to us. Reread moon I 10. It's right there. That's what it's actually talking about when, when it says that that uh God gives us the ability to judge these things. So use your judgment and that's how you can increase desire if the question, which I don't know if it's specifically what he's asking if the question is, how do you desire something more than something else? If the question is just in terms of intensity, how do you crank up your desire range? So right now, if your maximal desires like this, how do you increase it? Uh That answer is suffering. Now, the wonderful thing about that is you don't have to go looking for that God will bring it to you. He's, he's uh better at that than, than doordash. He'll bring it to you. And uh you don't even necessarily have to order it. Although un unknowingly, people do order it when they ask for certain things. Um chief among them , when they ask for the quote gift of charity, you're actually asking for greater suffering. It's a special kind of suffering, but I won't get into that here anyway. That's where we're going with all of this, that's where it's going. And so um one of the objectives of making this video is, is that I don't want, I'm doing everything I can with the limits of resolution because you can't zoom all the way into the fractal and show what's there until you've zoomed all the way into the fractal to show what's there. But I'm showing you at every level of resolution that this is all in a straight line, it's a straight line that points to God and what does it point? It points your heart to him and your mind. That's what I'm doing here. And so at any point in the future, hopefully you can look back, not just at this video, but all the things that I teach and share and say, yeah, all along. He was saying the same thing. I just didn't see it and that's fair. right? That's fair. But what we're trying to avoid, what I'm trying to avoid is anyone saying, hey, this is different than what you were saying before. Um Just, just to be uh mathematically precise here, the way certain things are described can change when you have better language to describe it with. That's part of increasing resolution. If you look at a blurry photo, it it will look different than a high detail photo of the same thing uh at some level, right? But it's the same thing. And so what we're trying to avoid is any accusation of, hey, this is a different picture. It's the same exact picture. It's all just repentance, it's all just do what the Lord would do in your place. And now let's crank up the resolution of what you see him to be.