I'm gonna try to be quiet here because it's super early. Um I don't want to wake people up. I got an email and um it's from a gentleman I have some history with. But um he so I know I know of his character and his um his sincerity and dedication to God. And um he said that him and his wife are having
some issues with uh with uh having another baby. Mhm And uh in short, he asked me to pray for him. So I did that this morning and um as I was going through that process, the Lord told me a few things and I, I could write this up and send it to him. But uh I'm going to make this video for him instead
. And so um as I was instructed to do that, uh the Lord told me to post this and of course I'm not mentioning his name or anything. I want you. Uh If you're watching this, it's an opportunity to extract principles uh for your own use and understanding about how mediation and intercession work. And um
some I don't wanna say techniques because it, that makes it sound like, it's some kind of trick but um some introduction into the laws by which God operates. Um I wrote about this, uh I wrote a significant amount about it in the book, Seek Ye This Jesus. Um The first half of Seek this Jesus is all about
repentance. That book preceded by several years. The book repentance I also wrote and I would, I would say that if you're interested in learning what um the principles upon which, what I'm about to tell you um is based, then you should read and live what is written in the book, repentance. And then what
is written in the first half of the book, Seek ye this Jesus. And then, and only then uh the intercession ideas that are described in the second half of seeking this Jesus. All right. So now begins the process of my conversation with the Lord about this gentleman whose name, I'm gonna try really hard
not to say so in kneeling down. Uh And, and yeah, I guess I'm gonna try to talk to this guy directly through this video, but I might fluidly jump between that and just making general comments. So um I'll do my best here and kneeling down. I was full of the love of God. And um it takes some time and practice
to be able to plug in to that direct channel. Um But when you live your life, constant gratitude to God, um even as he sends you waves of hard times it becomes second nature. Uh first nature really. It's kind of like if you're immersive, learning a foreign language and sorry, I just gotta turn down the
wood stove here mercifully learning a foreign language. Um You actually begin to dream in that language. So first you learn to speak more in that language. Um So the pie chart of what language you're speaking, the slice that is the the foreign language increases and it gets bigger than the other one
. And then you start thinking in the foreign language, but then you start dreaming in the foreign language and uh then you're, you're pretty close to the end. So, um anyway, I, I knelt down and I, I can turn that on. Um That's not right. I was gonna say I can turn it on any time. It is on all the time
. And so um you come to the point where prayer, the posture of prayer is just a formality s um because you're always praying and it's a, it's just an explicit demonstration of reverence. So I try hard not to apologize for um getting emotional. Um It's difficult often to make a distinction between things
that look the same but aren't the same. And uh whenever I get emotional in these videos, there's a few things that I need to say to help you understand. Um The reason that it's hard for me to say some things is because there's actually there's this quote, I think it's from Tolstoy where he says he doesn't
like using the word love because no one will understand what he means because he means something very different. Uh richer deeper. He said it better. It's Tolstoy like, of course. Right. But, um I often feel that way with language and it's very hard to use words to convey things that are so much deeper
than words can describe. And um, have you ever, I mean, if you've heated a wood stove, I happen to be doing that right now and it's really hot. Uh Even when there aren't any flames, it's just a bed of coals. It can get so hot that the second you put something in there that's combustible, it bursts into
flames. So there's no flames at all. But the second you put something in there, it just bursts into flames. The way glory works is um God's glory. Of course, light truth. All that, the fires that uh people see, like if you read any of these um descriptions of angelic visitations of the Lord visiting
people, theophany, you read this description of, you know, fire coming from their eyes or fire coming up there, um their legs, um or some part of their body being covered with fire or you read in uh the Old Testament about Moses and the burning bush, which actually it wasn't even a bush. Um is, is a
bramble of thorns, but that's, that's a different story for a different day. It's really important though. Anyway, um it was this billowing ball of fire that Moses saw and the billowing part is really important because it's an environmental contrast is what happens. So the uh there's a, I, I don't have
the right word to describe this, but maybe contrast is good enough. There's a, there's a big difference between the being and what's around the being. And so when a, a being of glory comes here, there's fire and the fire isn't coming from them. It's the reaction of everything around them to them. So
this is super important to understand because when you come into co into one of these situations, whether it's something like that, a visitation or you just get smacked upside the head with truths, you weren't ready to hear. Uh That's not the best way of describing that truths, you're not ready to hear
. It's uh a sudden flood of the next increment of truth from where you stand. Um When that happens to you, it's like you're standing in fire and you feel what psychologists call ego, death. Um A very close, very long time friend of mine said the other day, I, I was, I was telling him and I wasn't lamenting
this wasn't a mopey thing to say. It was just a statement of fact that I'm quite comfortable with. It's OK. I said, you know, I don't envy anybody who knows me. And he said what are you talking about? And it was appropriate that wasn't like out of the blue. We're having a, a deep conversation and he
said, what are you talking about? And I said, yeah. No, I don't, I don't envy anybody that knows me because I get what you have to deal with and, um, it's not something that I think is, uh, a desirable situation for anybody. I know now it's desirable for me. I would love to meet somebody like me. Um
But I understand where everyone is coming from and that that's not what they're all about. And uh so, you know, you walk around with this repulsion and I get it and I get why? And I was just gonna leave it like that. And he, he kind of thought for a second and then he said, which I'm not gonna be able
to reproduce um in any measure here. But in essence, what he said was, um he said, you know, when he, he referred to a conversation, we had had about some things in his life, in their temporal things just, you know, nothing crazy but um uh a bit. Well, now you're like, what was it about it? He, he has
two vehicles and he only needs one and there's some opportunities he has for uh allocating some money in a way that would probably be a little wiser than what he's doing and whatever. Um But the spirit said it's time to talk about this. So I had that conversation with him and so this is a little while
later and he goes, you know, when you say things like that to a guy like me for you, it's probably no big deal, but you gotta understand it. It makes our head spin because it's, there's just this pile of stuff we hadn't thought about ever. It's not bad stuff. Uh, in fact, it could be good stuff, but
it's so far out from what we were thinking that it's quite a flood. And he said, um, he said something like you're, you're a walking stream of ego death. So he, he knows what that term is because he's watched some, um, podcasts and things, uh, from psychologists and that's a psychological term. But,
um, it's a relevant term because that's the everlasting burnings. That's what it is. Um, I had a conversation just yesterday. In fact, with a guy about, um, man, he put it, well, I wish I was just hitting record, uh, when he said it, but it was something like he vocalized the theme that's been bouncing
around in my head. That's totally related to what I just said. Um, he said something like people struggle with, um, we'll say new information because they, they, it's like we're all hard coded to be disposed to, um, to measure our security based on how consistent our lives are. Our understanding is the
, these are my words. He, he would have put it much better. Um So in other words, the, the less, the more consistent our understanding and experience, the more secure we feel. But in the Gospel, what, what God does is provides us the path to feeling security in spite of no consistency. Uh That's the
extreme. So um I'm probably getting way too deep for this. Um But the point is that he lives in constant ego death because um and all who follow him will approach the same because the only consistency is in him, not anything else. And so people want, people want um way points that are the end, but no
way point is the end by definition. And so whatever you have, whether it's your understanding your situation in life, your identity, um anything, it's all subordinate to him. And while you think that that thing or that uh quality or situation or idea is your anchor. He has every intention and desire
to take it from you. This is completely relevant to the topic. Um in case you're not connecting the dots yet, and the path to him is punctuated by him, taking you, taking those things from you, how fast and how complete he can do that, how completely he can do that will depend on how you react because
the intent is that you grow into greater and greater trust in him. And he'll do this at first incrementally by sending afflictions to you and then you get to go through those. And um if he sends you rest, you can turn around and say it's over and God um save me from this. But the goal is actually not
to say that, but to come to the point where you learn to be as comfortable and secure in the trial as you are when it's all done and over with. So if this cycles enough times you can just say this is just another one of those and this is just the way it is and that's fine and i it doesn't matter. So
for God, all things are before him continuously. And what that means is that he has no time differential, it's all the same to him. Don't take that too far and I'm not gonna jump into it, but the point is that he sees the whole range of things, not just right here and now, and he doesn't have this gross
distortion that we do, uh something called time preference utility. Um You know, this is interesting. It's a side note, but if you're programming a robot with artificial intelligence, one of the things it's really hard to do to get a robot to act like a human, you actually have to code in some, um Bonkers
logic because a robot, if you tell it what's important, it will do that without regard without a bias towards time. So it turns out that humans are massively biased towards short term thinking. And this is one vast difference between wise people and fools is a fool is just thinking about today and tomorrow
. And a wise person is thinking about the whole span of time and the really wise person comes full circle to just think about today and tomorrow. But that is also a topic for another day. But it's another great example of the same thing on the surface but extraordinarily different underneath. Uh but
Jesus said, take no thought for the morrow sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof. And that's King James E lyric that doesn't make sense to normal people. But um that's the idea I'm referring to anyway. So as as long as you have an anchor, that's something other than God, the best benefit he can
give to you is to remove it. Now there, that is a rare thing for someone to say, please remove all my anchors, Lord because all I want is you. And even when someone says that they don't really mean it. And I'm not saying that to be offensive. I'm saying the second you say that God will show you, you
don't really mean it. And that's all part of the program. And then you get to decide if you really mean it or not. And if you do, he takes you to the next step, which is showing you another thing that you're prioritizing above him. So, um God's intent is to do what benefits us the most. And he only shifts
down to something less when, uh, it goes to palliative care. It's a phrase I've used before. But when we've set our hearts on something less, he'll give us what we want eventually. Once he's tried everything to persuade us to receive something better, to want something better, he'll give us what we want
. All right. So now let's plug all of this directly into the, the topic here. So I was praying. Ok. And I said, Lord, I said, I said something like Lord, I have lived according to your will and your word. And you know that there is nothing more that I would want to do than to see this man receive the
joy that he's asked. He emailed me and asked me to pray about this, not because of his faith in me, but because of his faith in you. And I reviewed with the Lord uh some facets of my life. And I said, Lord, if I have pleased you in any way, I pray, I want to pray that you will bless him with the righteous
desire of his heart. But I cannot pray for this in faith because only you know what would benefit him. He doesn't live with me. I don't know him super well, et cetera. And I can't say without revelation from you, what would help him the most. And the Lord um explain to me that while our hearts are on
anything but him, whatever we're asking for is less than the greatest blessing we could ask for because no matter what it is, the greatest thing requires that our hearts be set on him no matter what. And uh this gentleman's email is very clear that he was being very meek about this and it was a thy will
be done kind of thing, wasn't, this is what I want and that's the way it is. And so the Lord told me to tell him to purify his heart and said it completely on the Lord. And the way you can do that in this instance is for you and your wife to reconcile yourself completely to the idea that it might be
the Lord's will not to have that baby. And he said, well before I say what he said, um when our hearts are fully aligned to God and subordinate to God, no matter what his will might be, what happens is we go from a state where what we don't want might teach us the most and therefore might benefit us
the most because what matters the most is our connection to God. We go from that to a state. We're not getting what we want wouldn't actually help us at all. Do you get what I'm saying? So, coming up to the point where um our hearts are reconciled to him, no matter what unconditionally, which is easier
said than done. What what I'm saying is you are so subordinate and trusting, subordinate to trusting in God that if he were to give you the opposite thing of what you desire, diametric opposite, you would still thank him and praise him as much as you would if he gave you exactly what you were asking
for in the, in the, in the most direct, beautiful way. And then when you get to that point, it's a game you can't lose. It's impossible, right? Because he, he absolutely will give you what benefits you the most and you can know that whatever happens. And so if you have that gratitude, it's like you transcend
the game because you can ask for what you want and you should. But then when whatever he ordains to occur happens, you are just as happy as you would be in any case, right? You you can't lose. But back to the specifics with this gentleman. What the Lord told me to tell you is that if you can reconcile
your heart to losing the baby and have as much gratitude as you would, if the baby was came to term and born healthy and all that, if those things become indistinguishable in your heart, he will give you what you've asked for. The Lord keeps his promises. So I hope that this has helped everyone who's